will the yankees alex rodrigez speak up? how real is the threat zm. >> an exclusive and chilling look through the eyes of an assass assassin. one who lost track of how many he murdered. an american teen takes us inside the ruthless drug cartel that he killed for when he was just 15 years old. we begin with the biggest sports doping story since lance armstrong. the highest paid major leaguer ever. number five on the all time home run list signing autographs today. he once denied ever using steroids, then denied using them after 20034. now he's suspended for allegedly using them since then. accused of having ties to b biogenesis. a. rod drew a suspension without pay. late today he spoke to reporters. >> i'm fighting for my life. i have to defend myself. if i don't defend myself no one will. >> he play during his appeal. he's playing tonight in chicago, where jason carroll joins us. b.j. quinn has been following this story. >> when we saw alex rod reegs ez walk into the room about an hour or so ago, he seemed to be holding back